Truth in Human Experience #1 The Value of Self-Reflecting on Nothing

You are reading this because you are a human being. You are nothing else, you are not an insect nor an animal, nor a tree, nor a body of water. You are a human being. The faculties of self-recognition and language are in you, are of the physiological, of the neurological, of the capability of being. The opportunity to utilize the reflective-mechanism within, is occurring and is essential at all stages of life, it is a characteristic of primordial humanness, humanness that is simply a characteristic of itself.

With such a reflective-mechanism at hand, what would be an intelligent way to use it? (Afterall we are those who know they know ).

Let’s look at the domesticity of our situation, let’s really look into the dirt, grit, and crumb of our mundane domestic reality, see anything? See anything that would require desire to step in and change the channel, anything at all?

Static-white-noise, also known as agitation, it’s not the first thing anyone might notice, but the characteristic mechanism to fill in a blank when a blank appears, is indeed a distaste for what can’t be easily dealt with, zoom in closer, and it’s simply feeling uncomfortable with what isn’t filled, and even closer, zoom in even closer, and it’s simply a sense of suffering, suffering over what can’t be dealt with.

Without first acknowledging this ground-level of suffering, nothing actually can be dealt with, so most of the time it’s platter after platter, channel after channel, what feels like fun and what feels like boredom, and many, most of us, live our whole lives like that, with the exception of when loss happens and when we learn something new that deeply-inspires our interests.

Yet the agitation is still there in proportion with what isn’t understood in knowing how to deal with. We, humans, can reflect on this. We can reflect on our trouble with the inability in knowing how to deal with an empty, blank space, that is the space which fills the backdrop of all our domesticity. We can reflect on this. We have the capacity and the ability to reflect on this, because we are human, and we have the ability to self-reflect.

What would be the value in reflecting on this blank, negative-space, of the domesticity of our daily, mundane, lives? What, what would it be? Why would we look at that? Isn’t the whole point to have a TV to watch shows, to have an enriching life, of wonder and daily beauty? Why would we look at the space which the walls of our house surround, the walls of our bills, the walls of our love, the walls of our cars, the beautiful walls which make up our lives moment by moment, why, why would we look at the space which is negated by the fact we have walls, entertainment, and something always to do?

Well, to start with, we could look at the blank, open space of what surrounds each moment without distraction just to see what it’s like? To see if we can see ourselves in it, like looking on a mirror. We could look at the negative-space which surrounds our domesticity, and the very definition of our lives to simply see what it’s like. And in so doing, by seeing what it’s like, we also learn what it is like for us individually to look upon the negation of all things, and in so doing, we gain an experience that is different than the ordinary change of the TV channel.

We gain an experience that is different than the ordinary change of the TV channel, or going to get ice-cream or whatever we usually do at that moment, we are simply doing something different, something else, something unfamiliar, something kind of strange; we are simply seeing what it’s like to see ourselves look at what we usually wouldn’t ever even consider to look at, the negation which surrounds our lives.

Why?

Why?

Why does anyone want to do such an aimless and pointless activity?

It is in doing such an aimless and pointless activity, such as reflecting on the negative space of our lives, that actually brings about new experiences of profound implication, what may be defined as transformative.

Transformative.

Then what is the value of the transformative?

To transform, which also causes a difference in behavior during relating to others.

Transformative implies the reflection on insights which have a profound affect on us, and have the agency to be integrated into our ability to deal with what first-appears as annoying, and these insights provide substance to keep looking and to keep seeing and to keep reflecting on no-thing because, simply because, we learn about ourselves, others, and what the condition of being human most deeply desires more than anything; and we have a larger capacity to deal with what is hard to deal with, looking at nothing, and what the condition of being human most deeply desires more than anything:

Freedom. Happiness. Oneness. Intimacy.

Okay, it’s not very entertaining to look at the mundaness of the negative space which surrounds each moment of our built-up wondrous lives, but it does provide honesty. It does provide honesty’s looking-upon what is uncomfortable to feel, and in so doing, there is an integrity to experiencing the honesty of disappointed lack-of-entertaining mundaness; there is integrity to that. There is integrity to simply, honestly, being with what is so boring to look at, and to actually feel that.

Then we could say we are developing integrity. We are developing integrity as humans by looking at what is so boring to look at, the negative space, which drives us nuts and isn’t entertaining. What’s the use in integrity? What’s the use in honestly feeling pist off about nothing to be pist off about? I’d rather drink a beer and watch TV, wouldn’t you?

As human beings we have the mechanism of self-reflection, it is a basic characteristic of being human, we can self-reflect. Would you rather self-reflect than watch-TV, it’s like learning? Do you like to learn? Learning isn’t particularly fun at times, but its nutritious for the brain, and nutritious for understanding the definitions of a new subject. Okay, let’s watch football sometimes, and let’s learn things sometimes. There is no need for all or nothing.

Let’s look at nothing for half-an-hour, and after we’re done that, let’s watch the game. Sounds like a plan!

And that’s the spirit. That’s the spirit we need to look at nothing and to continue to live day-to day.

What kinds of things could we learn from looking at nothing? Okay, I see I’m agitated, I really want to turn the TV on right now. I am learning I get agitated by not doing anything, okay I am learning about that, that’s really annoying, I’m learning I’m getting annoyed. Okay, I’m annoyed.

Keep looking. Keep looking until the experience of what the experience was naturally changes. Naturally changes means you didn’t do anything to exit the experience, you didn’t change your focus, you didn’t turn on the TV. The experience naturally changed. By the time half-an-hour is up, what the hell happened? What was it all that you went through? Just staring at the carpet?

Go through and go through and go through, staring at the carpet, until naturally you would like others to do that too.

Now, let’s go watch a movie!

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